How many more times do I tell myself I need a fresh start?  I am sick and tired of the times I've tried and failed before deciding that I can moderate my drinks.  I can't and it's high time I accepted it.

Have had a disastrous year, my dear daughter died in February of cancer exactly a month after her diagnosis, two weeks later my husband collapsed and was rushed into hospital.  He has dementia and heart failure and the hospital said he needed to go into care but Social Services wouldn't help to fund it at all so unfortunately he is back at home now with me looking after him.

I go a couple of days without drinking, feel better and then start knocking it back again.  On Friday I went out with a friend and don't remember coming home, then on Monday I went to a different friend's afternoon party but again my friend and I went to the pub and unfortunately this time I do remember coming home and being accompanied by a vile chap who has been pestering me by phone ever since.

So folks, thought this blog may help me sort myself out, thanks for reading.